Millicent Borges Accardi


Injuring Eternity by Millicent Borges Accardi, $14.95, Mischievous Muse Press 2010 




A Portuguese-American poet, Millicent Accardi's second poetry collection is Injuring Eternity. Ms. Accardi is a National Endowment for the Arts and California Arts Council Fellow. Her poems have appeared in Nimrod, The Tampa Review, New Letters, and Wallace Stevens Journal. In addition, she has been anthologized in Boomer Girls (Iowa Press) and Chopin with Cherries (Moonrise Press). Ms. Accardi’s residencies include: Yaddo, Jentel, Vermont Studio, Fundación Valparaíso in Mojacar and Milkwood in Cesky Krumlov. Forthcoming in spring 2012 is the third collection of poetry: Only More So (Salmon Press, Ireland).


           The title of this collection of narrative and persona poems, Injuring Eternity, sets up a tension for the reader and Accardi does not disappoint. Injuring Eternity sets about the work of killing time by arranging itself in the shape of a day, with the named sections: Morning, Noon, and Evening.
Just for the sake of mood, consider each of these lines:
                                    Her dealer around
the corner waiting in striped pants (67)        

Black widow spiders
Abound in the wet darkness (77)

A few moments before her heart crushed
Her upon the ground from a fall(26)

    . . .Her
Black pants and uncrossed legs
Against his white fingers were all
She could see of the piano keys (1).

     A shadow lurks throughout the book, and the reader remains expectant, never knowing when a dark chord may sound. Against this tension, some poems speak to the death of Brittany Murphy, school shootings, a make-up counter,  Karl Marx (appears in two poems), Billy Holiday, Miles Davis (also repeats), the Gulf oil spill, passion, a carpenter spitting nails, and others.
The variety of poems in this book is unified by the work's voice, which is bicultural, bilingual, and female. There is a way in which Accardi flips language on its head that brings to mind turns of speech that a student of the English language might use; this gives lines or words a lilt in certain poems, a fresh approach to language. Time, in context, ticks away in flashes and instances; from the child reminiscing about the father or the wife struggling for existence, as in the poem, "Birth:"
                                                                                                                                                                                                           
In the living room, you my dear husband, my
you sleep: on the worn out sofa, like a child,
or a man who has given up. If my four legg'ed
shadow can crawl past you all will be well.

The Bible and the headstones will rest
with me, buried deep in trampled grass:
it is where they belong. You never gave me
any trouble, dear husband, but you never gave me
any encouragement, either (13).

            There is a duality throughout this volume. A duality of tradition against change, of culture against culture, and of man against woman; the gender clash is illustrated specifically here in the final stanza of Accardi's startling poem, "Argument,"

                                   
Like frozen water. We wish, for a moment,
we liked resistance. We wished we needed a cause
to believe in. In this city we keep trying. We hear
The word of hymns on fire.
In this city, we are the Ugly Americans.
As if I were a mad women,(sic) or someone to give
A wide berth to, you slap my face, an action
You would never take back home in the states (85).

         Readers are taken into childhood memories; we are locked inside inescapable mysteries with the poet. This happens in the poem, "Music Remembered from the Womb," which begins; "Their music was played/ long before father's coarse/ face abraded my shoulder, (32)" revealing a father's incestuous treachery. This poem leaves the reader in that place of devastation, with no hope for mercy or redemption, "And I see what he/tells me is true./The unmade wonder/of closed eyes, and the awful, awful/luck(33)."
From this darkness, we turn the page to become immersed in a childhood memory in "Blessing in Disguise,"
Ms. Accardi was kind enough to answer a few questions about her book…
BluemoonNortheast: Do you have a favorite poet or style of poetry?

MC: I am partial to subtle poems that do not tell the whole story, that paint a distant, abstract portrait of a snippet of time. Like the work of Lynda Hull. I like the mystery in poems and am fascinated by subtext, and what is left unsaid, the underlying truth belied inside the words on the page. Very much, I like the work of Antonio Machado, Fernando Pessoa, Carl Dennis, Neruda.

BluemoonNortheast: Janet Holmes says that your poem's "speakers navigate-between casual lies and the unknowns youth is especially privy to, building, poem by poem, a body of hard-won truths." What can you tell us about the voices you conjure in this collection, and do you have a way you connect to these personas?

MA: It sounds really stupid or ignorant or uneducated, but I find myself mostly listening to a lot, like Yeats' automatic writing. Many of the poems I do not feel were written and sweated over by me but delivered through me, as a medium does. If I sit quietly and pay attention, I can get a good first draft, then my job in the next drafts is peeling away whatever does not belong to get the poem on the page to match the poem in my head. So often my subjects and personas are not things I pick or even like but subjects given to me. It's like what used to be called a party line, in my parents' and grandparents' time—a shared telephone where someone could pick up the line at any time of the day and hear people talking. Now, that sounds insane too. I try to listen to phrases that I am given, such as a thought, dream, or some other starting point.

BluemoonNortheast: Can you talk about the book title and how it relates to time? And the three sections of the book, Morning, Noon, and Evening?

MA: Every moment in life is precious, and the Thoreau quote means to me that each should be savored and lived and not wasted, and I hope through whatever issues my narrators are going through in these poems that they are descending upon the time and not pushing it away. As the book came to be a book, it seemed to me that poems needed to be classified either by subject matter or by voice, that some pieces were morning poems while others were evening. At some point, it seemed natural to split them up into sections of time instead of all together. Shifts in tone or subject matter abiding seemed to fit easily into these categories.

Do you have a favorite poem in this collection? Why is this poem your favorite, and my we reprint it here?

Oh my. I enjoy reading aloud "Serving" at readings. It seems to have its own dramatic twists and pulls, and it is a good poem for those who have ever worked in the service industry to identify with. I also like "Birth" because it was my first, what I felt was a successful poem. And "Living Only with the Hands" and "Mourning Doves are also successful. I suppose, if I had to pick one poem to represent the collection, I would select "Mourning Doves." This poem encapsulates time and the importance of savoring each event and interaction between people and the natural world.



From Injuring Eternity:

Mourning Doves

Have such soulful
Eyes, their gray suit
Of feathers blurs and sinks
Them into the background
Like a creature in hiding.
They hover below the wild
Bird feeder set up for the finches
And harvest the shells, the thistle
Seed casings and what drops after
The finches and faux robins and phoebes
Have feasted. The mourning
Doves huddle and nest in the mountains
Of seed shells and dirt and make circles
With their small bird bodies turning
Into the ground digging a place around
Them as if they were under a shrub with only
The black drops of ink from their tail feathers
Visible. In a group, they lie in wait, their dear gray
Eyes gloomy and sullen and innocent and they want
What the world desires, to be fed and comfortable
And consummated and happy.


The Birth of Little Bull

(When he was born, the moon was beyond full)
And truth be told to thrive is to consume.
He crowned the water spilled, a son, our Little Bull!

We tried to speak, but none of us was able
when his bright cries arose to fill the room.
(When he was born, the moon was beyond full)

A son, on Easter Sunday, the stuff of fable.
His face turned up toward God and, spring was in bloom.
He’s crowned, as waters spill, a prince, our Little Bull.

He’s born. The world is new, and life is beautiful.
His bones and blood and heart knit in the womb
(When he was born, the moon was way past full)

Rest here, in these soft arms, all matriarchal,
as Venus, now betrothed, awaits her bridegroom.
He’s crowned, let waters spill, grandson, our Little Bull.

Rare blessings seem to spill as from a pool,
and darkness is now jailed within a tomb.
(When he was born, the moon was beyond full)
He’s crowned as waters spilled, a prince, our Little Bull.




The Death of Emily




This story first appeared in The Sylvan Echo, an online literary journal.

Dickinson's Missing Cemetery Gate Found
2-27-2004
Boston (Reuters) – An ornate wrought-iron gate that guarded the New England cemetery plot of the 19th Century American poet Emily Dickinson has been found at an antique shop after being missing for two decades, a descendant said on Wednesday.

The Death of Emily



    I heard I fly buzz when I died. It's the sound the life support system makes as I flat line. I slip out of my body and hang around the drop ceiling. I can see the top of everyone's head. I didn't know my doctor was balding. He has an interesting strawberry mark – a little map of Texas with ten hairs growing on it. I wonder if he knows about it.
            No one notices me. They've just realized I've gone missing. People run around the room, code blue. I feel young again. I want to let them know they can stop worrying. I am still here—right as rain. And I can fly.
"I'm okay. I made it," I say. No one hears me.
            The stillness in the room was like the stillness in the air between the heaves of storm. And then people go nuts. They use those paddle things. The Doc yells out amounts of medication — and "clear" – before he jolts me. They stare at the monitor. I want to sit up and sing, "I Love a Parade." My ticker is no good. We know that. That's why I'm scheduled for a triple bypass. It's
Heart failure is misery. This event is no exception, bad enough to drive me out. Maybe that's the secret to immortality – hang tough through unspeakable torture. And? I think as I float above the din. I move to the side of the room, where there's a window to the hallway. A man from housekeeping is cleaning the glass when I code. I wonder if the smell of ammonia tipped the scales.
My daughter will be devastated when they tell her I'm dead. People think it's the next crisis. It isn't half bad being dead. I feel I have someplace to go, better than I have in years. I imagine my daughter's face and find myself looking into it. In the waiting room, she anticipates news of me. She reads a magazine. Mary is thirty-seven. Even so, her face looks like a dumpling to me. I want to blow raspberries into her cheeks. Her cuticles are chomped. Her fingertips are stubby and wounded-looking. She absently flips through pages. Is she praying? I hear something, but her lips never move. Someone will be killing me off for her in a few minutes. I'm okay; I want to let her know.
"I'm alright. I'm still here," I whisper.
Thoughts of my body cause me to drift back to my room. I watch the goings-on. My chest is cracked open, and the Doc's latex-ed hands are bloodied. He looks defeated. I like to think it's about me. But I think it has more to do with failure. His hands are poised for a stranglehold. One foot is forward. He's ready to seize at something that isn't there anymore.
The room's been transformed into an operating room. Others, nurses, who came running when the alarms went off, stand waiting for the clock to run out. The eyes around are somber – but no one cries. Experience had wrung them dry, I suppose. An orderly appears and disappears in the doorway with a food tray. The window washer progresses down the hallway. I follow. His pores are enlarged. Some have stubble pushing through. His dark eyes scan the glass. I think he is worried about me. He and I turn to look when anyone walks by.
The nurse looks dismayed. After weeks together in the town of Ticker-Care, we are friends. She lunched with Mary in the cafeteria once. I can see now that the top of her hair is violently teased and lacquered; there are particles of dust on it. She backs away from the bedside. The doctor spoke and. breaths were gathering firm.
"Emily," he says, stepping near to my bedside.
I'm drawn on a downward draft as the Doctor rubs the wrist. He and I were unprepared for that last onset, the end of one reality. And then a brilliant light as when at a Christmas pageant, the King be witnessed in the room. "Wow!" I want to say. "This is fantastic!"
Mary's shoulders have quiet flakes of dander on them. She waits outside the closed door to my hospital room. The doctor removes his spattered gloves and jacket. Coming from the room, he extends himself to Mary. On his hand is another strawberry mark, one with veins popping through. Getting old Doc, I think.
I am overwhelmed! "Look," I say. But no one hears. The doctor is pensive. Mary's face dissolves, "It's okay," I say. The stretched lips are an ugly mask; there is a blemish on the chin. Two work on the body. Fat and skin re-cover haphazard ribs before the sheet is pulled for cover. I can't believe it's me. I can't believe I'm dead.
A cardboard box next to the bed holds reams of heart monitor paper. I imagine someone closing it for storage in a basement vault, the marks of a human heart. Long ago, I willed my keepsakes, signed away what portion of me be assignable. My phone directory sits on the wheeled-away nightstand. I'll trade that old life for this new one.
And then it was there interposed a fly,  with blue-uncertain-stumbling-buzz, it comes between the light and me. I hesitate, the windows fail, and then I could not see to see.  


The Adventures of Ghost Paula






The role of a writer is not to say what we all can say but what we are unable to say. 
Anaïs Nin

Ghost Fargo by Paula Cisewski, $14.95, Nightboat Books

 Paula Cisewski's second collection, "Ghost Fargo," was selected by Franz Wright for the Nightboat Poetry Prize and published in 2010. She is also the author of "Upon Arrival" (Black Ocean, 2006) and of three chapbooks: "How Birds Work" (Fuori Editions, 2002), "Or Else What Asked the Flame" (w/Mathias Svalina, Scantily Clad e-chap, 2008), and Two Museums (MaCaHu Press 2009). She lives in Minneapolis
            Perhaps this book appeals to me because of its story. Ghost Fargo has movement. The principal characters, a lost brother and 'Ghost Paula,' the shadowy sister left behind. She is the voice of the poem, 'This very world, in which my brother holds up//a cardboard sign at the freeway exit ramp and I,/ distracted, drive right past' (4).          
            "Ghost Fargo" is a travelogue. The reader shares trekker 'Ghost Paula's view of a cross country journey from "Cape Disappointment, WA;."
                                                This shore shall be named
                                                after my disappointment so that

                                                my disappointment can jut out
                                                into the vast ocean.
                                                to "Hell, MI,"
                                                ...
                                                That the ocean is endless, yet I will
                                                still be thirsty when I'm dead,
                                                buzzed on the miniscule reflections of stars,
                                                and the moon—that shovel with a face.     
                                               
            "Ghost Fargo" challenges the reader to note the appearance of ghosts and other visages. Throughout, we follow ghost Paula on her journey from crisis and grief, 'For nobody's gestures need be inelegant,/resembling a landscape overcome//then abandoned by sea. (17),' to a kind of redemption (but not really) as the closing poem, "A Wide Open Field" tells:

                                                It's no use: Ghost Fargo
                                                follows me around.

                                                to a new city, to
                                                an old country:

                                                it lives on scraps
                                                and cast-offs…


            Redemption comes later in the poem in the form of acceptance, 'I permit Ghost Fargo/to follow me around….' Exacting the human process of grief, Cisewski illustrates that there isn't a recovery, only the tacit acceptance of a perpetual haunting.
Themes converge in the layers of "Ghost Fargo" (winner of Nightboat's Poetry Prize for 2008) loss, ghosts, death, remembrance; family, psyche, travel, and absence are among them. The way these poems tell and interweave and how they bounce and echo from the singular voice of Cisewski's ghost Paula is likely what appealed to contest judge Franz Wright, "Paula Cisewski speaks…with great poignancy and ravishing technical skill."
            Cisewski uses device; repetition '…I like patterns and/and repetition and winning and punishment…/' (49) lines and/or words repeat (sparingly) within a single poem, 'hello? hello?' (10.) Used throughout are; Ghost Fargo, no one, memory, death, light, burial, and others. Cisewski gives voice to a chorus with her odes; this lends itself to the ghostly voice(s) heard in Ghost Fargo. Patterned images and inverted negatives convey the absence and permanence of loss '…My Fargo/won't admit it's dead' (19). 'In the darkening I lie beside my love./ Steeped in separate pasts,//…' (13) 'and what if your absence remains/the most interesting thing about me?' (16)/
There's more to note. I'll add that I followed 'memory' in the book; how the dead are embellished, what we forget or cannot forget. At the beginning of "Ghost Fargo," Cisewski speaks to loss and illustrates something of electroshock's effect upon memory. It is both a curse and a blessing, 'A needle/embroidering/the various/extinctions…' (24.) One only knows what's been erased through things exterior.                                                                                                                                                                               
I hear folks actually
made stuff up.
Anything meant
anything. Even
all the clocks were
once imaginary clocks.

from “Ode to my Weltschmerz”



            In case you read this ghostly story, and you will. I've made a list of some things you might want to pack for the journey (below). Also, I had the opportunity to ask Paula Cisewski a few questions about the journey that "Ghost Fargo" is:

BluemoonNortheast:  What is a Ghost Fargo?

PC: It is the best re-creation I could manage of a personal landscape for those places to which a person impossibly wants to return: a childhood home or a lost relationship or a former version of one's self. Maybe the speaker wants to return out of a sense of love, maybe out of a need for closure, but there is no return either way. Also, it's just a curiously satisfying word pairing in my mind.

BluemoonNortheast:  How long was this book in the making?

PC: About four years between its first seed and its final printing. I was in silence after my first book, "Upon Arrival," came out in 2006; it seemed, as it frequently does, that I needed to relearn how to write… again. There were a set of topics that I didn't necessarily want to write about around loss, and those things were standing like a blockade to any new possible relationship with poetry. So I wrote them. I feel glad I did. 

BluemoonNortheast: Your book's title comes from the poem, "Ghost Fargo" in these lines foretell the reader's impending journey, 'I have driven across the beautiful,/uncomfortable country many times//and have not seen him everywhere/" (3). What was your process and/or object in the way you compiled this collection? (which, by the way, works very well)

PC: Oh, thank you. I'm glad. The title poem was originally much nearer the end and was the last poem to find its place in the book. The choice to move it forward was, as you guessed, to ground a reader in a more solid voice before beginning the first section, "The Poor Choruses," which uses the most fragmented language in the collection.

My first organizational idea for the book was to base it on Dante's "Purgatorio." Almost none of that first plan remains; however, the collection does represent a speaker in a purgatory-ish state; she needs to let go, to exit. I hope it feels like she accomplishes that to other readers besides me.

BluemoonNortheast: In your notes, you reference your two recycled poems, one from Wallace Stevens and Robert Creeley. Can you say a bit about the conversations you have in your work with other poets? Who are your poetic heroes?

PC: I am such a fan; it's difficult for me to pare down a list. It would be thirty people off the top of my head, and then I'd lose sleep lamenting favorites I failed to name. 

BluemoonNortheast: What style or house of poetry is the most fitting for your work in "Ghost Fargo?"

PC: Maybe a Winnebago?

BluemoonNortheast: Am I wrong-headed in thinking this book is reminiscent of the confessional poets?

You are not wrong-headed. I love Berryman (Being from Minneapolis, I often cross the bridge where JB sadly ended his life) and then Sexton, and then to a lesser degree, Plath and Lowell. I don't consider myself a confessional poet. There are most definitely biographical elements in this book, and there is an "I," though I hope that GF speaker is slightly more of a mythic character than the "I" who is writing this response. She's definitely fictional at times, at least her travels and some of her bravado are.

BluemoonNortheast: Eleni Sikelianos said, "these poems beautifully clarify that the past has no family, just a self-standing on the horizon, surveying the territories." What do you hope these poems will do if poems' do' things?

PC: I told a poet friend who read an earlier draft that this book was a bit of an exorcism for me. He scoffed and asked, "How can it be an exorcism? It's full of ghosts!" That's true. Therefore, I hope Ghost Fargo is more like a peace offering… like putting an extra dinner plate out for the dead on Dia de las Muertos.

                   
What to pack for your trip to "Ghost Fargo:"

laugh box
dead folk
clown face
hospital johnnies
broken heart
memory
(the forgotten)
blood orange
comfy walking shoes
your shadow
idioms
a looking glass

From "Ghost Fargo:"



VINTAGE BLUE ANYWHERE


You think everyone knows
all about a thing so you don't

write it down, don't say.
Everybody does know

about it. It is difficult.
In the backs of our minds,

while several separate
groups of humans try

to entertain one another,
to be novel or bright,

a similar thought spider crouches.
Consider: the artist who was famously ironic

about being ironic. By each show's end,
the whole audience felt stupid. We loved it!

But some of the crowd  was only pretending,
you find out much later. It's no wonder,

when even the family cat's on
Prozac, we're tired of emotion in art.

That antique sadness in the new
inside joke. It's irrevocable, like when driving home

one night, the stranger who pulls up to the red light
next to you is weeping, both your windows

rolled up. You just begin to have a human reaction,
and then the light's green.


Maybelline







Maybelline

1
    Maybelline wants a baby. She wants Harold's baby. Lord knows she's taken a shot at it every night for months to no avail. It's just that she has no uterus. She's not mentioned this to Harold. Maybelline believes there must be options for someone desperately longing for a baby.

2
    Maybelline's new friend, Amy, who she met when shopping for pillows at the thrift shop across town, is having a baby. Maybelline discovers the white pee-stick with two pink lines in Amy's waste bin. 
    "I am happy for you. It's just that my period's started." Maybelline says, nearly crying. She excuses herself and rushes home.

3
    When Maybelline hands Harold the stick, she is no longer afraid he will leave her. He looks in the little window,
    "Two pink lines, May. What's it mean?" 
    She pats her pooch belly, tilting her pretty head. 
    Later, Harold makes gentle love to Maybelline, even kissing her down there.

4
    Harold leaves for a cross-country trip to escort a wide load delivery to Oregon. 
    Maybelline meets Amy for tea. 
    "Willikers," Amy says, "I thought you were bleeding? If that ain't some kinda miracle!" 
    "Spotting can happen when the egg attaches," Maybelline says. 
    She doesn't much like this, Amy, after all.

5
    As it happens, Maybelline's 20-year-old son JD shows up on the day of her baby shower. She gives him a smack and secrets him out the back door. 
   "How'd you find me? You can't ruin this, James David." He snorts and flips his smoke at her, "What's with the pillow? Are you running a con on Dirty Harry?"


6
    "We don't see that little blond gal anymore?" Harold says.
   "It's so sad, Harold. She miscarried and will have no part of me since." 
   Maybelline arches her back. Her big belly sticks
out.  
   "Why'd that delivery boy call you ma, May?" 
   "Honestly, wasn't that the rudest thing ever, honey?"

7
    Maybelline's feet are swelled up. She knows it's crazy. But, her breasts grow tenderer by the day, and she pees every 15 minutes. She gazes at herself in the mirror, rubbing her pillow belly. Finally, Maybelline brings her face to the glass.
Harold's right. She is glowing. Motherhood becomes her.

8
   "After you take the Corvette and make the delivery, you need to vanish, JD. That's it. I'm through mothering you!" 
    Maybelline hangs up, rubbing her fingers through her rumpled hair. She's dying for a cigarette, but it's not
good for the baby. 
   "This will be over soon enough," she sighs.

9
   "That picture on the news of the dead Amy resembles your friend. Don't she?"
   "I just saw Amy yesterday," Maybelline bounces baby Harold awkwardly. His insistent cries hurt her head. 

    "You're just like your brother, JD," she spits. 

    Harold doesn't hear Maybelline's chatter. Since his car was stolen, he only listens to the news. Maybelline hugs the little baby boy hard.


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After: Three Young Surrealist Women Holding in Their Arms the Skins of an Orchestra. 1936. Salvador Dali.
Music droops to a stop under the barren sky--a startling struggle on this narrow ledge. Oh grief, old glove, I throw you into the garden, escaping now. I place my ears upon this altar of rock. My nakedness thinly covered; head budding petals. These veils of flesh, this hedgerow, this rock cleft speak in aromas sickening and sweet. You lay in places surreal as a fractured bed. A white-noise the static cry; burning loss raises its flaming sun and symphonies pour from lungs.

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